And I Said No No No

Tried to make me go to rehab I said no no no....

I have so many mixed thoughts and feelings about the reported death of Amy Winehouse today.  I will say upfront that I am not a big fan of her.  I despise the song "Rehab" and really haven't listened to her other stuff because of it.  She seems to be really talented and maybe now that she is gone, I will buy an album and see what I think of her aside from that song.  I would feel more comfortable buying a CD now.  Previously I just didn't feel good about the process.  My money went from my American Express to iTunes, Amy got her cut and more than likely, before I even paid my bill for the month Amy's fair trade heroin dealer got his cut.

Here's the thing, I have always just felt mad when I thought about Amy Winehouse.  I was mad at her for making it cool to "say no to rehab".  I was mad at her fans for making it cool to "say no to rehab".  I was mad at her for "saying no to rehab".  Mad that she made money while doing this.  Oh and she just looked sickly.  Yeah, so I can be shallow.

It is really sad the way people let this happen.  Who was watching over this woman? I mean I understand that you can't control a person but maybe put her into a little bit better situations.  And take her to rehab and lock her in there!  Don't just keep sending her to record and tour so that the money keeps rolling in.  It just sickens me the way we could give a junkie award upon award for singing a song about how she won't fix her problem.  Everything about Amy Winehouse, her fans, her music, her handlers, just felt/feels so irresponsible to me.  I mean who didn't see this coming?  Lets try something, raise your hand if you were surprised when you heard this news.....see.....nobody.....wait....what an idiot.  But everyone else is with me right?

Also, we take drug references out of songs on the radio to the point that you can't say anything the even relates to smoking weed.  We freak the fuck out when there is a nipple on TV at the halftime show.  We can't say fuck basic cable. But we can have a heroin, ecstasy, cocaine, self mutilation, eating disorder addict sing about how she doesn't have time for rehab on network TV.  Sure it is late night and there were probably more, OK a shit ton more kids watching the Super Bowl, but tell me is it more harmful that someone say fuck on an awards show, or to give a person in dire need of rehab an award for a song about how they don't have time for it?

I am trying not to be insensitive (this is difficult) but I almost feel like this had to happen, that it is better this way, that there is a lesson somewhere here.  Something about saying no no no...to making a heroine out of someone that needs more help than fame.